I have a friend I have never met in person. We just share a friendship via Facebook.  She found me and man am I happy she did.  She is at the stage in her life I was just 6-10 months ago.  It was one of the darkest and saddest times in my life. Today she asked me the question. ” Don’t you worry about Libby not living a full long life?”  Immediately felt pain. Do I portray myself to people that I don’t care?  The unknown future for Libby is so scary. Within a few seconds 6-10 month ago I would have slipped right back into that dark, ugly emotional self.  I worked so hard to get out of there that I WILL NOT be going back.

I took a few deep breathes and answered back.  Oh my gosh, yes!  I do have that thought, but I can’t let it wreck me and take me back. I told myself as unknown of a future Libby has, aren’t all ours lives unknown? None of us can predict the future.

So I told myself I am strong… I am Brave… and most of all I have FAITH!   I need to focus on giving her what I know I can today. The things I can give her are therapy, healthy & happy lifestyle and love.  Living my life in confusion, frustration and fear for over a year crippled me.  I was not the best I could be for anyone including Libby. All I wanted to do was sleep and eat. I never took time for myself. I thought I was managing quit well. Boy was I wrong.  How did I get out of this abandoned well I put myself in?  I prayed, I loved, I decided to live everyday to it’s fullest. I hold Libby and kiss her as if it may be my last.  Because above all she knows I love her and I am giving her the best of me!   I now take time for myself, I manage my own health, and I don’t let my health manage me.

Thank you to this friend for reminding me that I have the tools to help others to overcome where I once was.  It’s a process and we all work at our own pace, but I can help provide HOPE even in the darkest of times.

I can’t wait for the day that I fly and meet my dear friend and her amazingly beautiful family!