Honestly where does time go? I have read that since 2008 days have been getting shorter annually by ½ a second due to a decrease in the distance between the Earth and Moon. Then it went into something about eventually the earth and moon will collide.  Whoa….. that is just way too much to think about.   I pray for extra hours in the day on a daily basis. No matter how planned out my day is, I still never get anything done.  My day is planned out in 15 min blocks.  I just don’t know how I could possible fit anything else in.  The few random days I feel like I accomplish a lot are very rare, almost as rare as Libby’s diagnosis.  It drives me crazy with how fast paced our society has become. It’s run from one thing to the next with no time to even think.  I have been in many group discussion on how to slow down life and focus on the important things in life.   The problem is I do really well for about a day and then my nagging schedule starts chirping at me and there I go… Rushing full speed into the next task.  Then before I know it a month has gone by and I feel overwhelmed AGAIN…

I strive to be a good mom, good wife, good Christian, and good friend.  So many days I fall short in all categories.  This vicious battle of finding balance in life does nothing but make my head spin even faster.  I know each and every one of you reading this can totally relate.  We all have our own kind of busy. We each have our own kind of stress. I don’t write this to get your sympathy or your help.  I write this so you know you’re not alone.  Yes I get told so many times….. You are one busy person…. I don’t know how you do it… Yes being a mom of a child with special needs adds difficulties.  But here is my secret.  Please don’t tell anyone. I do it because I have to, I do it because I love, I do it because I CAN. If I don’t wake up each day and tackle every obstacle in my way.  It won’t get done.  I need to move forward and I can’t look back. The absolute best part about my life is… It’s already planned out for me. I just need to sit back and let Jesus take the wheel.  My biggest life struggle is….. Letting go. Letting go of a grudge, letting go of having a clean house, letting go of money (well I do like to shop), and letting go of the past.  I like to think I am really good at taking care of myself. Boy am I wrong. I am actually pretty good at taking care of others.  I get so caught up with things and simply taking care of others I forget about myself.  I use to be really good at taking care of myself.  I use to eat really healthy.  I use to work out at least 5 days a week.  I use to hang out with my friends every weekend. The point here is I was not a MOM yet. I only really had my marriage and myself to take care of.  So it was really easy to make time for myself.

Now that I have added the job title of MOM, I need to re-prioritize my life.  A lot of real thought needs to be put into what is now important. Here is what I think my new life is all about. 1. Faith 2.Health 3. Family 4. Friends.  I have to say my life before kids looked slightly different. 1. Friends 2. Health 3. Career 4. Family. It’s amazing to look back and really see why you are, where you are, right now in life.  Yes I will continue to struggle to find balance with all of these.  Because just when I think I have it figured out…. Life throws me a curve-ball. It might be a new appointment to take Libby to.  It might be a new sport/love that Layken needs to pursue.  No matter what it is I need to remember to breathe, smile and have faith! Please remember we are not alone. Reach out to someone if you feel like you can’t breathe or have fallen and just can’t seems to find the way.  Never ever think you have to do something alone.  If nothing else call me I love to pray for people, but I love even more to pray with people!